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I stayed up for over 24 hours then finally went to bed around 11:30am today. I'm guessing my body went into some state of shock from finally being back in front of my computer and I couldn't pry myself away from it for longer than an hour at a time. Then I think I fell asleep mid-sentence with Ursulla because I remember having a conversation with her then waking up four hours later laying on the couch fully dressed, glasses still on, and nobody was here.
From then to 10:30pm was just me moving really slowly around the apartment, falling asleep for an hour at a time, trying to watch the Olympics for 20 minutes and getting bored, trying to make food but getting bored with it, trying to read but I would have to read the same page over and over until I gave up, fall asleep, check my email...no email...check it again twenty minutes later...one or two would come through...lay on the couch and stare at the ceiling...talk on the phone but couldn't find anything to talk about. Which is strange because I'm full of stories. I can't think about the past or the future right now. The next seven days are going to be hell, but I can handle it. It will be worth it.
Sometimes I still can't comprehend how different my life is now then it was three months ago.
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Kencredible scanned a copy of Marquis to show me my little feature thing :)
I'm back home now. I had such a good time in Atlanta. I can't wait to go visit there once I get to Savannah. Greg Truelove and I work really well together and I look forward to posting the sets on here that he shot so you can see what I'm talking about.
The night before I left Baltimore Chase shot me in some Kid Acne Knitwear.
I know, it's the most clothes you'll probably ever see me in.
My sister left me a comment on that last photo on Myspace :
"You look so sweet and beautiful! It really looks like the real you!"
That's the first time she's ever said that about any of my images in five years. I've made an art out of disguising myself and Chase was still able to break through the 'apnea' thing and shoot a real photo of me. He's my favorite person to work with and I consider him more of a painter with light than a photographer. Working with him is so much different than anyone else I've ever shot with. I don't even pose much, I just hold what he asks me to hold then he dances around me with his lights until he gets the shot he has in his head. It's refreshing to work with somebody that knows what they want instead of taking a thousand shots and hoping one comes out well. When I say this I don't want to discredit the other amazing photographers I've worked with, I just wanted to express my gratitude for the gifts he's given me and the experiences I've had in the last couple of months with him. Unfortunately he doesn't have nearly as much credit as he should have. It's disgusting how many high profile people have ripped him off but he's such a modest person that he will never publicly harass anybody that steals his original ideas, he has no 'wall of shame', he just keeps going about his business making his art and being a good person. I'll be happy to see him again.
The longer I sit at my computer the more I reflect on the last six or seven weeks. This was the best summer of my life and I'm ready to buckle down now and get to business. It's business...it's business time.
Thats what you're tryin to say, you're tryin to say lets get down to business it's business time!
I'm really happy to see my Houston people too. And I'm totally ready to leave this place and my real friends support me.
Speaking of artists...Alex Rodriguez
drew another picture of me after we got together in Portland. He's another really amazing person that I talk about on my blog a lot.
From Illusions...
"If you really want to remove a cloud from your life, you do not make a big production of it, you just relax and remove it from your thinking..."
"Live never to be ashamed if anything you do or say is published around the world - even if what is published is not true."
My roommates are asleep and I can't sleep because I'm so excited to be at my computer. I've already got ten windows open and Photoshop is open and I'm on AIM and I have my headphones on and I'm texting and I'm back in my multi-tasking workaholic mode. So I'll close this now and write more tomorrow and update with some of Greg's photos from Atlanta. C-YA.
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I just wrapped up a really long day shooting for Liberator latex with Greg Truelove. We're back at his sudio now trying to figure out if we want to keep working or just pass out.
I did get a chance to check up on my email and find some pleasant surprises from Kencredible! We shot in some Peacock Blue hats and other delicious little accessories in Baltimore last week. There's more but I don't want to ruin Christmas yet.
Then I saw these from Winterwolf Studios!
You can see the bigger version of that photo here.
That globe had a huge knob on top of it that was really difficult to lay over. Maybe that's why my back hurts? It was worth it.
I'm not ready to pass out yet. This is my last night here so I should make the most of it. Now I have to go kick Greg and try to convince him to think the same.
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