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"Make sure you get the Olive Garden sign in the background"
Meet some of my favorite people. Dan is the tall one with the glasses. He also goes by US Romance and he takes pictures of me sometimes for my site and sometimes for Supercult. If you go back through my journal you'll find some photos he took of me in his room.
The other guy is Internet Micah. He became my Fbff then my Tbff. The first time I ever talked to him on the phone we talked about the bible and Chase thought we would get along really well.
The girl with red hair is Caitlin. I started texting her at the beginning of this year until the texts went out of control and we finally met. I love her chest.
The lady in the gray dress with curly hair is Dana. She's my newest friend and we ended up spending most of the day together and I'm getting really close to her. She's going to be spending the next three weeks with Chase and me on our trip around America.
And last but definitely not least is Karen! She's the tall girl in the really cute vintage dress. I think she's beautiful and sweet and if I was a boy I would try to date Karen. I like Karen a lot. :)
I love all of them very much, especially for hanging out with me even when I have a disgusting gross freak laser arm.
I have three more little parties for my 24th birthday all at varying times and locations.
I love presents too :) You can buy me one if the mood strikes you. :)
xoxo
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I only fell out of one world and fell into another where I'm much more content, and I did it by choice, not because I had no other options left.
And you wouldn't shoot either if you had an entire three quarter sleeve and armpit tattoo being lasered off.
I'm starting to learn that people don't even look at what's scribbled on me. People just see a lot of black stuff on my arm and say,
"Nice ink!"
"I'm getting it lasered off."
"Why?"
"Are you serious? Look at it."
...."Oh. Is that why it looks like that?"
"Yes."
I've learned that "Nice ink/tatz/whatever" is the equivalent of someone saying, "I acknowledge you have tattoos."
That's not the point.
The point is I can't keep hiding anymore as much as I want to hide. And it's taking a lot of restraint to call out some of the people I'd love to call out for giving me shit about disappearing.
I had two choices to make. I could continue to put out half-ass work as frequently as I was doing right after I broke up with Philip Warner or I could wait as long as possible and then come out with better and higher quality work.
But I have a site, and I've been scared to even look at it, but I can't keep avoiding it and I'm on a cross-country trip now collecting content. When I get home I'll have 15 updates ready for the next few months and I can sit around waiting some more.
I fucked up so bad last year when I did this to myself. I've turned down so many jobs it makes my stomach sick to think about it. So I don't think about it...
But slamming vodka and eating pills and fucking up really bad one day last year with one of my really good friends at the time and asking him to tattoo this shit on my arm doesn't mean I'm bad at business, it means I'm compulsive and I do really stupid stuff but I'm fixing it now.
I have my last laser appointment on the 13th and then in a year it's getting fixed.
Then everyone saying mean things about me disappearing can go fuck themselves <3 I'm sure you'll still be doing the same thing you're doing now, because it's the same thing you were doing last year and the same thing you'll be doing in a year.
xoxo
apnea
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I've been doing non-stop tutorials and working in new programs to figure out how to build websites...I feel funny talking about it because people that know how to really build them will laugh at me because I'm just starting and my first few sites are going to be less than great...I actually really like the first site I helped build. Chase sits next to me and he has a lot of experience so he helps out. I'm excited at how fast I'm learning!
We're leaving for a road adventure sometime at the end of next week :) I love summer road trips! And I'm going to some cities I haven't been to in over a year. :D
We woke up really early and went to the bird show this morning. We bought two new Bantem hens and three others for Katie...one of them is a Cochin and it's the cutest hen I've ever seen in my life. It has little feather boots and when she runs she looks like a little wind up toy and she's so sweet! She let me walk right up to her in the yard and pick her up.
Back to my work :) xoxo
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