I know where the fear is coming from. I have recently gone through every set on my site and seeing it really affected me. I have no emotional attachment to any of it, it's not that. It's the writing from the set descriptions when I first started, and shooting the sets I shot just for "content". At a chair. By a window. At a chair in front of a window. Same bed, same pose, same makeup. The set descriptions sound so bad to me that I haven't even been able to update a blog because I couldn't get those words out of my head. I could barely write on Twitter. And so many of those photos, it just isn't me anymore. Everything I do now has love and soul put into it. I actually care about it. It's definitely not for the money, believe me. I guess it's interesting for someone to watch the progression from the beginning to now. It's definitely noticeable. The photos get bigger, the quality gets better, the editing gets better, the set descriptions sound like I wrote them with humility, but even still I have doubts about myself.
I wish so much I could tell everyone all of the things I didn't write that had my name on it. I have a horrendous story I could tell about things that have happened.
At least, as painfully slow as it has been, the people I wanted to find out on their own are finding out for themselves things I've been too scared to say or that nobody would believe when I said it.
Love, me
I think it is clear how much you have evolved from your site. It is a beautiful progression, you should be proud of it. I know it is hard to look back at what we have done with pride sometimes, but it is the growing that makes you who you are today. I also want to comment on your anxiety. I have had a lot of anxiety problems myself and I hope you find peace. I will say that what worked for me was Buddhism. Not totally changing all of my beliefs, but reading and meditating. It might help you. xo
Thanks for the inspiration faery girl =)
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